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The 13 minute catch-up post

I have 13 minutes before the next discussion session starts at Fitbloggin, so let’s see what I can tell you about my life in that amount of time.

"empty downtown offices on a Saturday"
my view through the hotel window
  • I’ve done so-so with my June goals. I worked out most days this month but not a single strength training session and I never made an appointment with a trainer. I’ll do a real June Project Me review coming up soon but expect to see “work in some strength training” on my July goal list.
  • My blood sugar is fabulously under control. In fact, I’ve begun slowly reducing my nightly dose of insulin because I kept having yucky low blood sugar readings after (or worse, in the midst of) exercising in the mornings.
  • I’ve started an eight-week Learn to Crochet course and am looking forward to making loads of wooly things!
  • I hit the big four-oh. Forty pounds lost since February 1st. I don’t see it in the mirror but other people have started to notice, for what that’s worth. (I’ve also lost three dress sizes which is both gratifying and frustrating. Gratifying because I can wear clothes I’ve had stuffed into a box for three or so years. Frustrating because I forgot about those clothes for so long that they are now too large and have to go to the tailor. (Yes, too large is a nice problem to have.)

That’s all of the good stuff. For the not-so-good stuff…

  • Still battling the depression. It’s not going away but I’m still working out and still eating properly – I just do it with a piss-poor attitude and lots more whinging.
  • I will be having 15 – yes, really, 15 – teeth removed surgically on Monday. Turns out that diabetics have a much greater chance of developing periodontal disease, which would have been good to know when I was diagnosed in 1996 but whatever, and also that both my mother and grandmother have had major gum problems. So I have to have 15 teeth removed and I will have a temporary partial (aka a “flipper”) for 6-9 months that will look acceptable in normal life but cannot, under any circumstances, chew food. In other words, I will  not be able to chew food in public until after Christmas. I’ll pause a moment to let that sink in. OK, so now I have to figure out how to keep myself moving forward with my diabetes self management while I can’t eat food in public. Or chew meat at all, really. Definitely will give this more thought and words here.

How was your June? Any big plans for the upcoming Independence Day holiday (if you’re in the US)?

  • http://gingerzingi.wordpress.com

    Congratulations on the 40 pounds! I can see a big difference in your FB photos. You look fabulous, darling!

    I know it isn’t helpful right this minute, but I do believe eating right and exercising are going to be remarkably effective tools for fighting depression. It’s not the entire picture, of course, but crappy food and inactivity are definitely contributors to depression, so keep up your good work, and you’ll start that upward spiral.

    So sorry about your dental woes. No, I cannot even imagine not eating solid food until after Christmas! That’s beyond my comprehension. I want to say something like “just focus on how much weight you will probably lose on a liquid diet” but that just sounds so F-ed up eating-disordered it’s not good advice. I know you are strong enough to deal with anything that comes at you, so I know you’ll get through this, but you have my complete sympathy for the ordeal. Will be sending good vibes at you, chickie! Stay strong and keep inspiring me!

    • http://lottalatte.com

      Thanks for the support, Ginger, you have no idea how much I appreciate it.

      For the depression, it definitely seems easier to call the depression out now that I’m eating better and exercising, but it still hangs in there pretty tenaciously. Still, at least now when it’s finished with its dirty work I’m not 10 pounds heavier.

      You know, I totally allowed myself to dwell on the positive weight loss side effects of a mostly liquid/definitely no meat diet for a little bit. Helped tremendously with the terror level, at least initially. Now I’ve just sort of settled into a resigned mindset along the lines of, “My gums are diseased and that could spread to my heart if not taken care of. This is something I have to do so that I can start to heal and continue on the healthy path I’m choosing.” Again, still pretty terrified but at least I’m not huddled in a corner rocking back and forth. (Not sure how I’ll be by noon Pacific on Monday!)


  • First, congrats on the loss!

    I can empathize with the dental stuff. I had my top 4 teeth removed last August – yes, almost a year ago. I’ve written about it some on my blog. The not chewing hasn’t been a huge deal – I’ve learned to compensate and how to discretely take out my temp teeth, eat, and put them back. the biggest thing for me is how I feel about my appearance sans fron teeth.

    Take care!

    • http://lottalatte.com

      It’s so helpful to hear from others who’ve been where I’m going – thank you for sharing. I’m honestly most concerned about how I’ll look without my front teeth in. With any luck at all, the pain will subside by the end of this week but I’ll have to deal with the missing teeth for the rest of my life, and I’m not sure how I’ll get past that. Any advice?


  • Denise,

    I had a LOT of stitches. One thing that surprised me was how swollen and sore everything was until a few days AFTER the stitches were removed. I didn’t expect that. It sucked.

    After that, it wasn’t such a big deal for me. I got used to using other teeth & otherwise compensating. Again, the big thing I didn’t expect was feeling “less than” due to lack of teeth.

    Take care, good luck, and I’m here if you need an ear! 🙂